At the end of this term

I am so sad because I could not hold a sophomore section compa!!

However, I am so happy that I made a lot of friends in this class and also in other courses!

Nowadays, I am thinking how to be friends with others. It is hard for me to make friends sometimes. I know the reason. It is because I am too noisy. Because I talk too much, people cannot stop me. It is very big problem. But, I have a reason to talk. If I do not talk a lot and just ask some questions to people or talk nothing, they may feel uncomfortable and get nervous. So I just want to encourage them to talk. This is my biggest problem recently.

What I have written and learned

I learned how hard to write about myself. Even though I wrote some academic essays, I found it is hard to do personal writings.

I published one piece and two pieces are on processing to publish. First piece is the translation of a poem written by Kotaro Takamura. Second piece is a poem about the cold winter. Third piece is a short story about my high school day.

What is my view about religion

I feel religions have power to help and save people.
Also, religions can be very dangerous.

When I think about religions, I cannot simply say that I am secular.
I enjoy Christmas and Hatsu-mode. Also I am now in ICU and my grandfather is sleeping ina graveyard of a Buddhist temple.

I had not thought about religion so deep, I just can say that I am not a Christian or a Buddist. I think many Japanese have never considered about their religion. For foreign people, it is strange thing because many of them have their own religions and beliefs.

I think God cannot change or control everything in our lives, but maybe he or she is watching us all the time. However, I think there might be many Gods or Goddesses in this world. There can also be a good God and a bad God. However, I think that Gods cannot do everything, I mean their power is not almighty. They might be able to give us some influence, but it might be not so big as our destiny is changed.

Anyway, because I have my own way to think about religion and God, if you have any other opinion, let me know.

Second piece (Draft)

Please check my draft!
This is kind of a poem about winter.
Thanks for Mitsuru for giving me advice about rhyme.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1mZPf_FUuegHJIkjBPplaot3pX_m54z2im2SiRKzFVfs/edit?hl=ja

Ken-chan

Because last week's fixed topic was ''What is love for me', I want to talk about Ken-chan this time.
If you feel this is a kind of "noroke", I am so sorry for that.

However,
I don't like the word “boyfriend” “lover” and Japanese “kareshi”. So I always call
him Ken-chan and use the word Ken-chan when I talk about him with others.
（That's why many people know the name of Ken-chan even though they have never met him.


First, I want to talk about his background and personality.

・He was born in Japan.
・He grew up in America, Britain and Canada.
・He lived in abroad for eleven years.
・He is a logical and critical person.
・He is a gentle man and have a sense of lady-first.
・He is good at talking and writing in English.
・He says something directly.
・He graduated from ICU high school.
・He was in Archery club in high school.
・He was in Chorus club in high school too.
・He likes singing and talking.
・He is a student of Waseda University.
・He is 20 years old.
・He has a dream now.
・He is now a personality of a radio program in Waseda University.

We met each other at the first day of the high school life. We were in the same class at the first grade of high school. My first impression was, I do not want to say it because it was so far from good. His hear was formed hard and his fingers were rings. I thought he was a "charao" in Japanese, means a lightweight boy. I even thought that I could not be friends with him.

It would be too long if I write all story of me and Kenchan, so I will stop  here.


Anyway, it was good chance for me to think about him deaply.

What is love for me

For me,

Love is not something able to get easily.
Love is not something able to get quickly.
Love is not something able to get suddenly.
Love is not something that I can have more than one.
Love is differ from the feeling of like.
Love is differ from the feeling of getting into someone.
Love is not something hot, but warm.
Love is not something exciting, but interesting.
Love is not something eternal, but able to be lifelong.
Love is not something like in novels or in mangas.
Love is not something same for everybody.

Love sometimes can make anger and hatred.
Love sometimes can make misunderstanding of each other.
Love sometimes can make miscommunications.
Love sometimes can make us sad.
Love sometimes can make us nervous.

However,
Love can make us happy.

Even though I am in a relationship with Ken-chan, I do not know what love is, but I do not consider about it so deep because when I am with him, I feel that I love him. For now, that is enough for me, I think.

The words that I was impressed

"Live life you love, love life you live." (By Ken-chan)

This is needed for my life best.



"Cute is the justice." (By my section mate)

I always buy something cute without thinking it is useful or not.
But, the cute stuffs make me relaxed and comfortable.



"ICU is an acronym for Isolated Crazy Utopia." (By ICU students)

I strongly agree to this!
ICU is so far from convenient and easy to access.



"Your destiny never lead you to the life you want." (By Pro.Moriya)

I do not know whether it is true or not yet, she also said that even we tried to plan our own lives, it did not make sense because our lives were effected by many elements and our lives were easy to change their way.