Because last week's fixed topic was ''What is love for me', I want to talk about Ken-chan this time.
If you feel this is a kind of "noroke", I am so sorry for that.
However,
I don't like the word “boyfriend” “lover” and Japanese “kareshi”. So I always call
him Ken-chan and use the word Ken-chan when I talk about him with others.
（That's why many people know the name of Ken-chan even though they have never met him.
First, I want to talk about his background and personality.
・He was born in Japan.
・He grew up in America, Britain and Canada.
・He lived in abroad for eleven years.
・He is a logical and critical person.
・He is a gentle man and have a sense of lady-first.
・He is good at talking and writing in English.
・He says something directly.
・He graduated from ICU high school.
・He was in Archery club in high school.
・He was in Chorus club in high school too.
・He likes singing and talking.
・He is a student of Waseda University.
・He is 20 years old.
・He has a dream now.
・He is now a personality of a radio program in Waseda University.
We met each other at the first day of the high school life. We were in the same class at the first grade of high school. My first impression was, I do not want to say it because it was so far from good. His hear was formed hard and his fingers were rings. I thought he was a "charao" in Japanese, means a lightweight boy. I even thought that I could not be friends with him.
It would be too long if I write all story of me and Kenchan, so I will stop here.
Anyway, it was good chance for me to think about him deaply.
2011年10月24日月曜日
What is love for me
For me,
Love is not something able to get easily.
Love is not something able to get quickly.
Love is not something able to get suddenly.
Love is not something that I can have more than one.
Love is differ from the feeling of like.
Love is differ from the feeling of getting into someone.
Love is not something hot, but warm.
Love is not something exciting, but interesting.
Love is not something eternal, but able to be lifelong.
Love is not something like in novels or in mangas.
Love is not something same for everybody.
Love sometimes can make anger and hatred.
Love sometimes can make misunderstanding of each other.
Love sometimes can make miscommunications.
Love sometimes can make us sad.
Love sometimes can make us nervous.
However,
Love can make us happy.
Even though I am in a relationship with Ken-chan, I do not know what love is, but I do not consider about it so deep because when I am with him, I feel that I love him. For now, that is enough for me, I think.
Love is not something able to get easily.
Love is not something able to get quickly.
Love is not something able to get suddenly.
Love is not something that I can have more than one.
Love is differ from the feeling of like.
Love is differ from the feeling of getting into someone.
Love is not something hot, but warm.
Love is not something exciting, but interesting.
Love is not something eternal, but able to be lifelong.
Love is not something like in novels or in mangas.
Love is not something same for everybody.
Love sometimes can make anger and hatred.
Love sometimes can make misunderstanding of each other.
Love sometimes can make miscommunications.
Love sometimes can make us sad.
Love sometimes can make us nervous.
However,
Love can make us happy.
Even though I am in a relationship with Ken-chan, I do not know what love is, but I do not consider about it so deep because when I am with him, I feel that I love him. For now, that is enough for me, I think.
2011年10月23日日曜日
The words that I was impressed
"Live life you love, love life you live." (By Ken-chan)
This is needed for my life best.
"Cute is the justice." (By my section mate)
I always buy something cute without thinking it is useful or not.
But, the cute stuffs make me relaxed and comfortable.
"ICU is an acronym for Isolated Crazy Utopia." (By ICU students)
I strongly agree to this!
ICU is so far from convenient and easy to access.
"Your destiny never lead you to the life you want." (By Pro.Moriya)
I do not know whether it is true or not yet, she also said that even we tried to plan our own lives, it did not make sense because our lives were effected by many elements and our lives were easy to change their way.
This is needed for my life best.
"Cute is the justice." (By my section mate)
I always buy something cute without thinking it is useful or not.
But, the cute stuffs make me relaxed and comfortable.
"ICU is an acronym for Isolated Crazy Utopia." (By ICU students)
I strongly agree to this!
ICU is so far from convenient and easy to access.
"Your destiny never lead you to the life you want." (By Pro.Moriya)
I do not know whether it is true or not yet, she also said that even we tried to plan our own lives, it did not make sense because our lives were effected by many elements and our lives were easy to change their way.
2011年10月17日月曜日
What is happiness for me.
I had almost forgot to blog because I was so busy last week!
I am so sorry that I didn't even comment on blogs of my comment group's members.
By the way, for me happiness is SMILE OF SOMEBODY.
If I get a question when I am happiest, I will answer that when I am eating awesome dishes with my friends. I smile a lot while I am eating something delicious. I cannot stop smiling or even grinning while I am eating something delicious. So, if you know good restaurant, please let me know.
I am also happiest when I can chat with my friends with "true hearts". I use "true hearts" to make differences from Japanese "oseji" or kind of unnecessary talk with full of "sekenbanashi" it maen s that is excluding their opinions or feelings. I love to talk to my friends as one person to one person. I mean that I do not like to talk about what we can talk with others. I want to see my friends as only one person in the world, and also as a person who is not same as any other people.
With this kind of chatting, I think I can be much better friends with them. And this makes me happy so much. i cannot think the life without my friends.
of course, not every time, it is impossible to do it all the time. I cannot do it some times because of pragmatics.
And, also, I like to make someone's smile. it means that I like to make them laugh by saying something fun, and to make smile by helping them with something. Sometimes, I fail to make my friends laugh by saying something not interesting. It is called "suberu" in Japanese, but I do nto care so much about it because if I am afraid of doing something, I cannot do nothing. On the other hand, I do not fail to help somebody, I think. Because I have a loud voice, I am good at stop the person who forgot something in a train or in a bus by shouting "Is there anybody who forgot this?!"
I am so sorry that I didn't even comment on blogs of my comment group's members.
By the way, for me happiness is SMILE OF SOMEBODY.
If I get a question when I am happiest, I will answer that when I am eating awesome dishes with my friends. I smile a lot while I am eating something delicious. I cannot stop smiling or even grinning while I am eating something delicious. So, if you know good restaurant, please let me know.
I am also happiest when I can chat with my friends with "true hearts". I use "true hearts" to make differences from Japanese "oseji" or kind of unnecessary talk with full of "sekenbanashi" it maen s that is excluding their opinions or feelings. I love to talk to my friends as one person to one person. I mean that I do not like to talk about what we can talk with others. I want to see my friends as only one person in the world, and also as a person who is not same as any other people.
With this kind of chatting, I think I can be much better friends with them. And this makes me happy so much. i cannot think the life without my friends.
of course, not every time, it is impossible to do it all the time. I cannot do it some times because of pragmatics.
And, also, I like to make someone's smile. it means that I like to make them laugh by saying something fun, and to make smile by helping them with something. Sometimes, I fail to make my friends laugh by saying something not interesting. It is called "suberu" in Japanese, but I do nto care so much about it because if I am afraid of doing something, I cannot do nothing. On the other hand, I do not fail to help somebody, I think. Because I have a loud voice, I am good at stop the person who forgot something in a train or in a bus by shouting "Is there anybody who forgot this?!"
2011年10月11日火曜日
Nightmares which I have seen before
Nowadays, I seldom have nightmares compared with before.
However, when I see nightmares, I become so scary.
Even though I wake up, My heart beats faster than usual.
So today, I want to talk you about my nightmares.
First, I see nightmares of being late for something.
For example, to be late for school, or to be late for the deadline of a report or essay.
This kind of nightmares are really really scary for me, and Always I wake up earlier than usual when I see this type of nightmares.
Next, I see nightmares that include someone's death or disappearance.
It is also scary and there are too many despondent and sadness.
Somehow, I, myself also die in the nightmares.
They are really fearful.
Third, I also often see the nightmares that I am chased by somebody.
This type of nightmares are terrible because I am always running ahead, and I cannot change the situation of being ran after.
I must not be overtaken by them or be caught by them because they are somehow very bad guys and trying to kill me or tring to eat me or something like that.
In this dream, I always have difficulty to breath and have some obsession that I cannnot be caught by the people who are running behind me.
I do not want to have these nightmares, but I often do.
I have never seen good dreams in my life, I guess.
Maybe, I just don't remember.
However, if you know how to see good dreams, please tell me.
However, when I see nightmares, I become so scary.
Even though I wake up, My heart beats faster than usual.
So today, I want to talk you about my nightmares.
First, I see nightmares of being late for something.
For example, to be late for school, or to be late for the deadline of a report or essay.
This kind of nightmares are really really scary for me, and Always I wake up earlier than usual when I see this type of nightmares.
Next, I see nightmares that include someone's death or disappearance.
It is also scary and there are too many despondent and sadness.
Somehow, I, myself also die in the nightmares.
They are really fearful.
Third, I also often see the nightmares that I am chased by somebody.
This type of nightmares are terrible because I am always running ahead, and I cannot change the situation of being ran after.
I must not be overtaken by them or be caught by them because they are somehow very bad guys and trying to kill me or tring to eat me or something like that.
In this dream, I always have difficulty to breath and have some obsession that I cannnot be caught by the people who are running behind me.
I do not want to have these nightmares, but I often do.
I have never seen good dreams in my life, I guess.
Maybe, I just don't remember.
However, if you know how to see good dreams, please tell me.
2011年10月9日日曜日
My strengths and weaknesses
I have considered about this since last Monday, but it was hard for me to think about it!
I am tired of thinking, so even though these parsonalities are not well organized, I upload this blog.
Strengths
1.I am NOT shy.
=I can talk to almost everybody without hesitating.
2.I like English very much.
=It can be a strength when I am in ICU, don't you think so?
3.I have loud voice.
=Sometimes, it helps me. For example, to get people together in a trip.
Weaknesses
1.I forget many many things.
=It means that I lose many many things, maybe you know what I mean.
2.Toooooooooooo selfish.
=I am so selfish that I tend to think about myself first.
3.I am rude.
=My room is so messy...Especially before the tests.
=Also, I am not good at using "Keigo"(the words to show respect).
4.I am negative.
=I sometimes think too deeply and guess something bad.
5.I am not logical.
=I am rather emotional.
6.I cry very easily.
=I hate women who try to solve any problems with their tears, but sometimes I look like that kind of person...
7.I am not good at time management.
=If I start reading a book, I cannot part with the book till I finish reading it.
8.I am too Japanese.
=It means that I sometimes pay too much attention to the atmosphere or something that someone says. I sometimes sacrifice myself for these things too much.
....Actually, I can say more about my weaknesses but I stop here.
Because I am becoming to hate myself more and more...
Thank you for reading this.
I am tired of thinking, so even though these parsonalities are not well organized, I upload this blog.
Strengths
1.I am NOT shy.
=I can talk to almost everybody without hesitating.
2.I like English very much.
=It can be a strength when I am in ICU, don't you think so?
3.I have loud voice.
=Sometimes, it helps me. For example, to get people together in a trip.
Weaknesses
1.I forget many many things.
=It means that I lose many many things, maybe you know what I mean.
2.Toooooooooooo selfish.
=I am so selfish that I tend to think about myself first.
3.I am rude.
=My room is so messy...Especially before the tests.
=Also, I am not good at using "Keigo"(the words to show respect).
4.I am negative.
=I sometimes think too deeply and guess something bad.
5.I am not logical.
=I am rather emotional.
6.I cry very easily.
=I hate women who try to solve any problems with their tears, but sometimes I look like that kind of person...
7.I am not good at time management.
=If I start reading a book, I cannot part with the book till I finish reading it.
8.I am too Japanese.
=It means that I sometimes pay too much attention to the atmosphere or something that someone says. I sometimes sacrifice myself for these things too much.
....Actually, I can say more about my weaknesses but I stop here.
Because I am becoming to hate myself more and more...
Thank you for reading this.
2011年10月8日土曜日
Just for my writing-2
I translated a poem, but it was not so impressing and I need some revises.
Will you give me some advise?
Translated Lemon Aika by Kotaro Takamura.
『LEMON LAMENT』
You were waiting a lemon so much.
In the well-lighted, white and sad bed to die.
You bit the lemon which I'd brought for you with your lovely teeth.
The lemon made topaz smell.
The several drops of lemon from Heaven brought you around saddenly.
Your blue clear eyes showed your giggle.
Oh, What a healthy strength of your hand to grasp my hand.
Still you had a storm in your throat, at the last moment of her life, She comes around.
She comes back into former her.
And she devoted me her life long love in a moment.
And then,
You took a deep breath as you did in Santen in the old day.
And then,
Your organs stop working forever.
In the shade of Sakura arranged in front of the picture,
I will put a lemon which shines brightly today.
Will you give me some advise?
Translated Lemon Aika by Kotaro Takamura.
『LEMON LAMENT』
You were waiting a lemon so much.
In the well-lighted, white and sad bed to die.
You bit the lemon which I'd brought for you with your lovely teeth.
The lemon made topaz smell.
The several drops of lemon from Heaven brought you around saddenly.
Your blue clear eyes showed your giggle.
Oh, What a healthy strength of your hand to grasp my hand.
Still you had a storm in your throat, at the last moment of her life, She comes around.
She comes back into former her.
And she devoted me her life long love in a moment.
And then,
You took a deep breath as you did in Santen in the old day.
And then,
Your organs stop working forever.
In the shade of Sakura arranged in front of the picture,
I will put a lemon which shines brightly today.
2011年10月5日水曜日
What I hate more than anything
I was thinking to write about the thing that I hate more than anything, but I noticed I do not hate something so much.
I realized even though I hate cigarette very much, I can ignore the smell if the smell is not so strong. Also even though I hate a crowd, I sometimes have to be in a crowd and I can endure the situation.
mmm...
In addition, even though I hate spiders, when I have to fight against them, I try to beat them. However, of course, if I can, I run away from them.even though I hate people who are not honest, I pay no attention to that when I have to talk with them or cooperate with them.
Actually, I think I am a kind of optimism and I am a person who can deal with almost anything.
Also I noticed I am good at ignoring my own feelings. It means that I can do many things whether I want to do or not. It might be not good at all, but I think I am that kind of person.
Oh, maybe I have to change the title of this blog.
By the way, it is almost tome for me to go the class.
I realized even though I hate cigarette very much, I can ignore the smell if the smell is not so strong. Also even though I hate a crowd, I sometimes have to be in a crowd and I can endure the situation.
mmm...
In addition, even though I hate spiders, when I have to fight against them, I try to beat them. However, of course, if I can, I run away from them.even though I hate people who are not honest, I pay no attention to that when I have to talk with them or cooperate with them.
Actually, I think I am a kind of optimism and I am a person who can deal with almost anything.
Also I noticed I am good at ignoring my own feelings. It means that I can do many things whether I want to do or not. It might be not good at all, but I think I am that kind of person.
Oh, maybe I have to change the title of this blog.
By the way, it is almost tome for me to go the class.
2011年10月4日火曜日
Just to think about my writingー1
I am now thinking to write a translation of my favorite song or poem.
One of my favorite songs is "Kanashi" (means beloved) sung by RADWIMPS.
Also one of my favorite poems is "Lemon Aika" (means sad poem related to a lemon) written by Kataro Takamura.
I may change these things, but I am now trying to translate these things.
I cannot decide what to do.....
One of my favorite songs is "Kanashi" (means beloved) sung by RADWIMPS.
Also one of my favorite poems is "Lemon Aika" (means sad poem related to a lemon) written by Kataro Takamura.
I may change these things, but I am now trying to translate these things.
I cannot decide what to do.....
2011年10月3日月曜日
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